Tonight

Sometimes, ignoring the complications in life makes it easier for us to live in it.

i don't blame myself for questioning
"why do people fall in love?"

it's all the things we were taught to run from
Would you, in all experiences, agree with my statement? Or would you garner enough strength to discredit it? How many of us have hopes that we might find comfort in another being, who we can run to every now and then at the end of our weary days, and in comfort we chance salvation.

How many actually live to see that dream?

As forementioned, experiences are what gives us the right to empathize completely with the sentence. It's all the things we were taught to run from, but for someone to have hopes that we can live to see another day, a better day, i think they'd deserve that better day.

i wouldn't didn't have the courage to see or even make believe.

Really, how many actually live to see that dream? Possibly close to zilch, and the epiphany of this dream being at the nadir of all hopes seem to be a kill-joy doesn't it?

But,

if all is said and done and over, if we don't want to we don't have to; we have to make the change because it's worth the try - what's broken then cannot be fixed tonight, overnight.

Is it really always the end of the road that matters? If i had the chance to relive my life and if i were given a choice to do things differently - i wouldn't. It was the journey that brought me this far, and it is still going to be a hell of a ride. The end doesn't really matter, because we'll always start out at the beginning again with more than a penny worth of experience because of the paths we went through, we'll always come back to the beginning. I always come back to the beginning regardless of the time i take to heal; i always come back.

I've come full circle.

Derek